Hands Held High, Eyes Into The Sky

Last time I wrote this was almost 2 months ago...

I feel depressed and decided to come back.

I'm...pissed I guess.

Mom fricken hates me now. Always yells at me and never calmly says anything to me anymore. And even admits that she does and says that before she said it calmly and it never worked. Well then how the f*** do you think it'll work, when you're screaming at me? Even though I wanna better relationship, I want her to go fix herself first. She's been so pissy ever since her job and her birthday just passed and she's worse than before. I just can't handle her so I just avoid her at all times. Like just now I had a conversation with my dad. I purposely did it while my mom was taking a shower cause every time she argues, a nerve is hit and I go off on her. Didn't work cause my dad talked too long and then she started yelling at me and I completely zoned her out. I can't wait for college to leave my parents. They suck. But I feel really bad for my sister...I'll fight for her when she needs it.

Another thing about my parents...why they can't the f***in clue that I like Ariel? They're like I don't want you talking to Ariel cause you're hinting something at her. WELL DUHH! But I know that if I say it out plainly, they will be all over me and trying to turn my head the other direction so definitely not a smart idea at all. Yeah...can't wait for college. 

And the whole deal of having a communication? How the frick am I suppose to communicate with my parents, especially with my mom, when they disagree on almost every fricken thing that I believe in. Yeah I know my logic and reasoning is a bit weird, but it's not WRONG and SINFUL in God's eyes! 

I'll finish this later. =(